For The Captivator of Heart,
I woke thinking about an incongruity in my heart, one which I believe finds itself in yours as well. Love is a strange thing and the situation it is, or is not, coming into existence is peculiar in its own right. Lovers who by the only characteristic of proximity are holding themselves at the starting line of a journey of heart and soul when all other signs and signals entice and encourage the continuance of its exploration.
But I understand the hesitation. Love is a complicated matter, it is no small feat, and in which the complexities of emotion and thought are ever entangled. The uncertainty it foments makes every step feel insecure because the act of love requires that known risk of vulnerability, one that asks us to place our hearts upon the altar of sacrifice in the hopes that God would make something higher of it.
And how it aches and pains when the journey results in events unexpected, out of line with the love stories our minds created. And a heart that wears the marked wounds of Love’s striking fire knows all too well the necessity to walk cautiously, if at all. And so there we stand at the base of this steep and difficult path trying to answer the riddle of commitment and decision, straining our mind’s eye in an effort to see any glimpse of reassurance that what we want to trust is trustable and safe.
But the awareness of what’s possible creates a pull too intriguingly powerful to not follow its guidance for the conviction which lies half asleep in my young heart tells me that despite the risk and consequence, despite the seemingly insurmountable difficulties, it is Love in all matters which constitutes the True North and if I desire to be fully human it is at its altar I must lie myself.
But I want you to know, that in the cloud of uncertainty that surrounds us and keeps us isolated, I will, for now keep calling your name in hopes of hearing the echo of my own, murmured by the sweet sound of your gentle voice.
I guess time will be, as it always is, the ultimate revealer of whether or not this worked.
With peace,
With love,
From The Captivated Heart